The Little Things: I wish I'm invincible...wait...I'm already am... =(

I wish I'm invincible...wait...I'm already am... =(

The person that I thought I could trust turns out to be wrong. I always blame myself for not trusting him..Now? Sigh. I regretted..I don't know what should I do right now. Those messages I read in her phone which are from him really hit me hard this time..I didn't know he could turn out to be those kind of guys.I really love him and I thought he would change after what had happen last time. But I was wrong , again. He told me that the both of them are JUST friends. When I read those messages , I was thinking "Friends got send this kind of messages to each other meh?"

I was so hurt. So mad. So disappointed. I couldn't stand it anymore. I can't hold back my anger in my heart. After reading those friggin' messages , I called him and release everything (not basically everything ) I even cried , shouted on the phone. And all he replied is "I just want her to be happy" He only wants her to be happy.

There's a lot of ways to make someone happy. Not that..That's a wrong way to make people happy. Sigh. So u would rather make her happy than making me happy? Why didn't u think of us , our relationship before doing that stupid thing?

Tell me .. am I not good for u in this relationship. Am I just some toy or whatever so that u could play with my feelings? What does she have that I don't? What is it? Tell me...Am I a boring person to be with? Am I a useless piece of shit?

I feel so used... T.T

I gave u everything I have..This is how u repay me? By doing some shit stuff with other girls?

Sometimes I wonder , was it really worth it being here at the first place. I feel like killing myself but on second thought , I wont because I don't want to end up being in hell for eternity. I just don't know what to do with u anymore. I don't know what to do in this relationship..

U told me before that u won't keep secrets from me even though it will hurt me so bad. U lied. U LIED to me. U kept a secret from me which can really kill me. When I found out , I was so hurt. Hurt because u lied to me. Hurt because u kept this away from me. Sometimes I wonder whether u did this with other girls?

*crying*

Why...Why...Why...Why...Why... T.T

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Blowing through the jasmine in my mind ♥

I've been told that I don't smile a lot. I've been told I'm too sensitive. I've been told I'm not the best. I've been told I'm unpredictable. I've been told I'm obsessive. I've been told I'm too jealous. I've been told I broke too many hearts. I've been told that I'm a coward. I've been told that I'm not open minded. I've been told that I'm a bitch. I've been told that (.....)

DAMN, yikes man! There are so many things you don't know about me. And yet your like judging a book by its cover. But oh wells, I get that a lot and your right, I should probably smile a lot. :DDDDD.

I'm trying to forget about the past. Trying not to look back. And now, I'm striving for the future. Cheers to that! *cheerssss*

Till then, TTFN :)